Tooooo much shit going through my mind right now. The night was going fine until i felt like i was being a thrid wheel. That ended up to anger. That ended up to dents on my wall. That ended up icing my knuckles. I honestly just cant believe that this night happened. This is the only time im expressing this situation out, i really do not want to talk about this night constantly with people asking " yoo what happened ? you can tell me. this is just between me and you i swear i wont tell" i had enough of that right now. It also sucks to know your having second thoughts but your decision will be fine with me, and i know, i wouldnt want the past to happen again and i really, truly do not want to hurt you again, i hope you know that. Im not going to lie, times are hard now and days and now you just have to find a way to keep things for ourselves that we can't say that is personal to us. Right now all i need is fam and friends who are true to me. I cant handle all this stress and bullshit. I just need you people to bare with me and just wishing all this shit talking will end SOON ! Some people just got to realize to let the other people deal with themselves. Let them fucking be. If they don't like the shit you do, then let em be. If they dont agree with the same shit you dont agree on, then let em be. If that person doesn't want to listen to your opinion, let em be. If the person wants to be with someone that you think isnt good for that person, let em be, just give them the advice they need and just let that person go, let the person feel dumb if they dont listen to you, let em be. If that person wants something that they want then LET THEM FUCKING BE !
No one is asking for a lot, but i know that all they want is for them to keep their own buisness. Theres no need for anyone to be stressed about how they live their life because of the shit thats been talked about them behind their backs. Just allow that person to live what they want live, do what they want to do, be what they want to be.
Yeaaah i may be writing this post at 5am but really who gives a fuck. Its my choice to be expressing the shit i feel right now, so let me be. Yeaaah i fucked up enough times, but it seriously doesn't help if you go around telling people shit that isnt necessary to hear, unless the person doesn't give a fuck if you go around telling people. For all the times i fucked up .. im sorry. Not only to you, to everything life i fucked up in. I got enough years in my life to make it up and ill do my best not to do it again. I can't promise on that but ill give it my best shot. .. Shiiit i know forsure i wont be sleeping for a while. Hard to sleep with a lot of things going through my mind and being stressed out. I just hope the best comes out of this post, but i know the shit talking wont stop. I actually dont give a damn anymore. Say what you want to say, lol i cant control you. But i wont give a shit and i know for a fucking good fact that you can NOT control me...
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